Depression and burnout among pastors is a chronic problem in the church. Many pastors experience down times where they donโt have much energy for ministry. These often follow a period of intense ministry activity. Itโs a natural response of the body to being overworked, but itโs not burnout โ not yet.
Burnout is a prolonged feeling of depression, joylessness, or anxiety. In pastors there are several symptoms that signify full-blown burnout. Before reaching that depth, there are signs that burnout may be on its way if things donโt change. Below are partial lists of symptoms for pre-burnout and total burnout. If you are experiencing three or more of these symptoms, that may be a sign that you need to make some changes.
Pre-Burnout Symptoms
- You continually feel behind in your work.
- Youโre consistently working more than 45 hours pers week.
- Youโre not taking a Sabbath day.
- Youโre not taking a day off.
- Youโre feeling continually frustrated, anxious, or stressed.
- Youโre having trouble sleeping.
- Youโre not getting at least 7 hours of sleep each night.
- Youโre having trouble being creative.
- Youโre not exercising.
- Youโre using overeating, sex, or self-destructive behaviors to mask your emotions.
- Youโre withdrawing from important relationships.
- Youโre avoiding conflict out of self-protection.
- Youโre not praying.
- Youโre not reading your Bible for your own spiritual nourishment.
- Youโre not aware of Godโs presence.
- Worship feels stale.
- You donโt love preaching anymore.
- You have escapist daydreams (like dreaming about other jobs).
- Youโre avoiding accountability.
- You feel shame, self-loathing, or indifference toward self.
Full-Blown Burnout
- You donโt feel anything most of the time โ life is kind of gray.
- When you do feel, the emotions are intense โ rage, vengeance, jealousy, or thoughts of self-harm or suicide.
- You feel like your job (or even your life) is killing you.
- Youโre doing the bare minimum every day.
- You have no energy for basic tasks โ especially self-care.
- Youโre in full-blown addiction to pornography, alcohol, sugar, shopping, or other destructive behaviors.
- Youโre engaging in mind-numbing behaviors for long periods of the day โ TV, video games, surfing the internet, etc.
- You have nothing to look forward to in the morning.
- You avoid going to bed at night because you fear tomorrow.
- Youโre hyper-vigilant โ your defenses are always up.
- You canโt think clearly, ever.
- You find yourself asking, โWhy did I do that? Thatโs not like me.โ
- Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde feels like your personal diary.
- The only energy you feel comes from anxiety, anger, or fear.
- You havenโt laughed in months.
- Your spouse or kids are avoiding you.
- You are thinking of death or asking God to take your life.
- You donโt even know where your Bible is.
- People have stopped asking, โAre you okay?โ
- You feel empty inside.
- Exhausted doesnโt begin to describe how you feel.
- You are in full-blown doubt โ wondering if God is even real.
- Hate feels good.
- You cry for no reason.
- You donโt cry when you should.
- Existence hurts.
If you are in burnout or approaching burnout, you are not alone. Iโve been there and God brought me back. Hope is not gone. You can find joy and fruitful ministry again but you will need help. Talk to someone. Find a licensed Christian counselor, a spiritual director, or a veteran pastor (like me) and ask for their help. In my next post, Iโll share how I climbed out of burnout.